Sometimes i get confused do i actually like you or are you just a nice person?! ( he is a veryy nice person tho irl)
But your type girls were different. You were amazing in maths and i hated it. You liked the class topper girls and probably even barely knew about my mere existence. And you never even talked to mee~
Fastforward to after eight just got over( also covid hit right after) and we all had to change schools and join the other branch ( as our school was till 8th only~). Coincidentally we didnt join the other branch and chose a different but same school. But damn you got the other section( so all our classes and group were different and we barely had any class together)
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Dear D,
Hi everybody! I have been looking at posts on narcs and narc abuse on here and if has really helped me out a lot. I am currently struggling with my situation and need some advice/support.
I met a narc last year, everything seemed to good to be true. Love bombing, always texting calling and taking me on dates. Everything changed when someone warned me about him out in public in front of him and who he is. This caused a conflict with us and the love bombing seized.
he would tell me that everything is okay and i can come and talk. He would set a time limit on me and kick me out after that.
he would then text me like everything was fine and we hung out again and after that he completely ghosted me for one week. He came back and texted me a week later laughing about the ghosting and acting like nothing had happened.
he continued to text me ( not like in the beginning) make plans with me, then on the day of the plans he would just ghost me. One day he would act interested the next silence.
i contacted him a month later and he acted like nothing happened. He was on a vacation and sent me a picture of another woman ( someone he allegedly met on the trip) to strike a reaction but i never gave him one. After the trip he came to my place and was extremely rude, accusing me of going on dates with a bunch of men. The next day he accused me of being an alcoholic and that he wanted nothing to do with me but said well maybe we can be "friends" then ghosted me
i assumed at this point it was over and i would never hear from him again. He contacted me on the holiday a month later acting like everything was great. We ended up hanging out a month or so later and when we hung out it went well, i thought things were going in the right direction.
after we hung out.. silence. I would try to text him and if he replied it would be very short then he just stopped replying. He ghosted me for almost three months. I thought he was done this time and of course he popped up again like nothing happened. At this point i was getting sick of if so i questioned him as to why he dissapeared and always does this. Of course he had some sob story about a injury and family member dying of cancer. I felt pity for him and he gave me an apology.. so i took him back stupidly.
things seemed to be going smooth for a couple months, of course until his family member died and his injury got better he never contacted me and was distant. Menawhile, i was there for him during the difficult time for him. He lied to me about the funeral and never wanted to chat. I was chasing him and he would always claim nothing was wrong but when i said i thought he used me when he was down he could not handle it and would always tell me he didnt care and to go away. I would get so upset i would try texting him to work it out he would barelt respond and if he did he would not be nice about it.
we did hang out a couple times after that, he would ignore me after. One day i was like hey i think you are seeing someone else, and i was like well ixam seeing someone so no problem if you are he said " buy bye good luck with your new guy stop contacting me" i was devastated and tried to get into contact with him for weeks then i just gave up and accepted it was over. He ended up contacting me a month later acting like everything was fine. He wanted to go out and have drinks i told him i would. He and i both seemed to have a great time. He ends up ignoring me again. I kept texting him trying to figure out what was wrong. He kept saying everything was fine and i said ok can we hang out again? He said maybe i was like why? He just kept saying maybe …
our last conversation we had… i said what is wrong ? He said nothing is wrong everything is fine. I asked him why he keeps saying maybe. He said " maybe but i dont want to see you right now" i said why? He saix " im just not feeling it, if i wanted to date i would" i said why did you contact me less then a week ago wanting to go out? He said i didnt.. even though he did. So i said should i just move on or what? He said whatever you want to do. So i said that he was really confusing me and asked him if he had anything more to say before i move on? My messages were turning green so i panicked he blocked me and reacted irrationally. I said " omg did you block me? My messages are not going through. Even texted him on my work phone asking what was up. And called him twice ( please dont judge me i know it is pathetic i never was this type of girl before him) so he replied and said " Ok I'll block you now" then immedietly blocked me. He has never blocked me before since I have met him he will just ghost. Is this ths final discard aka " grand finale? Did i just push him too far?
this has upset me so much its hard to even function.
I kind of forgot about in the lockdown. But even after 10th we again chose the same jr.college/classes. Coincidence again?! And the moment i saw you i knew this crush aint going until it crushes me. But whats different was the fact that this time the way you noticed me was different. It felt to me as if i existed for you the first time. But u still didnt T a l k to meee. Till now i was only crushing the personality but now i was crushing you whole. The brownish crisp goldenish skin, prettiest tiny black eyes, perfect nose, chapped dry lips but with the perfectest smile everr. I imagine you in so many taylor songs now. Its crazy. Now that i look back, i would've confessed but after 10th i was going through some different shit at home. Which made me loose interest in almost practically everything for a while. ( yea depression hit, its ongoing lol) Now that our 12th is over. And ik this time you wont be anywhere near to my college ‘Coincidentally ‘ , ill still silently pray somehow in future i get a chance of telling you how wonderful you are. You will probably never like me the way i liked you but knowing the fact that i liked you this way just makes me happy. And agr aage kuch nhi bhi hua hamare beech me im all good ig idk. Par the fact that we both are from the same native city , our moms knew each other , just makes me go like sab kuch itna alligned hai yaar. But nvm. Yea it pisses ke off so muchh to see you with some other girl whos prolly your type. But whatever it is, one thing ik is that i liked you for you , so if ever in future( my delusional ass) if you like me for me only then can we be something. Yea my liking might be on some dangerous top levels for you but still not above myself.
It all started in eighth grade. Although i have known you since fourth , but it all sparked up four years later. If i come to think of it then i hated you in seventh for breaking my first ever monitor batch. But in eight idk why i became a little fond of you. I wont lie but yes i was always astonished with your maths skills. We barely ever talked even in a class of 35. I can count on all the little conversations we ever had. Whether it was me asking what combination is considered out in hand hockey to a simple one word ‘thankyou’ when you passed me a book. Im not exactly sure what made me like you. But im guessing it was that day in eighth when you were returning your friend's blazer to him and you said sorry as a button had come off. But he got all mad and pulled up your collar and instead of fighting back all you did was to pull yourself away without fighting back or trying to hurt him in any way. You have always been so cool and calm both in and out. It was probably this small gesture which made me develop a crush. Little did i know it would last four damn years.
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